As you may, or may not, have noticed, I was not posting anywhere last week: nothing on here, or Facebook, or Twitter (other than some scheduled tweets).
There were several reasons I was so silent. One was that I was more than a bit fed up with some of what I was seeing online. People going on and on about a certain high visibility trial that ended, many of them trying to start arguments with each other over whether the verdict was right or wrong – and very few of them being anything close to polite about it.
When I came back to Facebook and Twitter, I found that some of those people had posted about nothing but that particular thing for the entire time, making me very glad that I’d avoided it all.
Another big reason that I was so quiet is that my dog died last week. I’m not going to get into the details, because frankly, I don’t really want to talk about it. It was not completely unexpected, as I knew it was coming, but it happened sooner than I thought it would. It was really hard for me to deal with, even though I knew it was coming and I thought I had accepted it. Once it happened though, I realized I hadn’t accepted it at all.
I’ve begun to deal with it now, though. I still feel a bit sad and depressed if I think about him, so I try not to think about him. I’ve got plenty of things to occupy my mind, so it’s becoming a bit easier every day.
Then my kid’s beta fish died. That one didn’t get me all teary, but it did frustrate me a bit with the timing. He discovered the fish was sick at bedtime, and by the next morning, the fish had gone belly up. We have no idea what happened to it, but given that this is his third or fourth (while my other kid is on is second or third), we’ve come to the conclusion that betas may not be the best choice for us. So instead of replacing his beta, we’re instead planning to get a 10-gallon tank and get some tropical fish instead. Easier to care for and hopefully a bit hardier, these will also be more active for the kids to watch, and bonus: if we get a good combo of male and female fish of the same variety, the kids may even get to see baby fish.
A cat is also in the works. The kids have been asking for one for some time now, and I had been refusing, since we had the dog. But when I had to tell them that the dog wasn’t going to be with us much longer, they asked again if we could get a cat, and I found that I couldn’t say no. I’ve always been a cat lover, and used to have one before my youngest was born. There’s something about having live, furry pets around (as opposed to the fish and lizards that are all we have right now).
So we’re giving it a few weeks for transition between the dog and the cat, taking some time to deal with losing one before getting the other.
I’ve gotten a lot of writing done during my absence, though. That is one of the great things about writing, in fact. When I really, desperately didn’t want to think about anything else, losing myself in the story I’m currently working on was so helpful. I could escape my own world, my own problems, and lose myself in the made up problems of my characters. And since I gave them much bigger problems than what I currently have, it was easy to focus.
Starting next week, I hope to be a bit more active again. I’ll probably scale back to posting about once a week, though, because we’ve only got a bit more than a month before we start school again, and at that point, my life will be super busy again.
That’s what’s been going on with me. Hopefully your summer has been better.